As I sit here by the computer listening to Israel Houghton's "Hosanna", my heart and mind engage in a battle that has become exhausting and frustrating. I don't know how to reconcile what the bible says about Gods goodness with what has happened in my life, and in the lives of so many people in the world. My life is a series of moments; ones where I am living without thinking about living, and ones where I am not really sure if I am really here, and I feel disconnected from everyone and everything. I feel a part of me existing in a place that I cannot see or describe.
God know I need him more now than ever, and I need a burning bush experience so bad. Im out here in the woods and I feel like it should be easier for Him to get to me, for him to show himself. I don't know who God is.
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