So it has begun; Kris is a fourth grader at a new school, in a new state. The first morning of school she was already awake when I went to wake her, we both said good morning and smiled at one another. All the routines of the morning were fulfilled, and she wore this adorable dress and I did her hair. We went with the bow bun that she loves. As I was taking pictures to send to daddy, and of course to post on Facebook, I had a moment. I saw her as a baby, chubby and adorable, the light in my life for so long. This child has been the driving force that has kept me looking forward through all of the things I have been through since she was born. I admire how brave she was when the school bus finally came and even though she was nervous, she climbed on and sat down. I tried to get her attention but failed. When the school bus doors closed, my heart was sad. I miss her. Summer time spoils me with her all day presence. This morning she didn't hurry and wasn't able to sit in the seat she "claimed" and she was sad, even cried a bit. She breathed on the window and asked to go home, of course I said no, and then she breathed again on the window and etched out " I <3 U"...and I pointed to my eye, my heart, and then to her. The bus pulled off and I was sad; no parent likes to see their child cry without trying to help somehow, I had to let her go on her way.
If Kristin has to get up everyday to face the day, then I must do the same. If she can find joy in the things in her life, then I have to do the same. If this little brave exceptional girl steps out of the house ready to face this tough world, I cannot be anything short of brave as well. So today and from now on I will use her as the example. I admire her so much.
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